update: new blog (i promise no more jumping around).
I love getting feedback and comments so pls help support my new blog.
thanks a millions =)
|due to ppl stealing my pictures and pretending to be me i have decided
to stop posting personal pictures on xanga until i come up with a
clever solution to this problem. i feel violated & definitely
vulnerable not knowing what others say or do with my identity. i
believe that we are all individuals with our own special things to
offer to this world. why are ppl so afraid to be themselves and show
the world who they are instead of pretending to be other ppl? if we can all just shine in our own way we
would have so much to contribute to this world and to other ppl's
lives. we all have diff strengths and talents that make us beautiful. why hold back?|
i have been hesitate to post anything up because even the words that i
express are robbed from me. i shouldnt let such petty things hold
me back from expressin myself to the world & i wont. i am working
on a website currently and i believe that will defintely give me more control
in this matter. thanks for all the ppl that have supported me thru xanga. pls check back for updates.
another one of my creations.....
sorry for the lack of updates. ill be returning soon since im ready to quit my day job and chase my dream FULLTIME!!
thanks for all the messages & comments(im not being a snob) i really appreciate them even tho ive been gone for so long.
dont worry ill be back soon.
damn...havent been partying for a while....this was taken last saturday at shark's club.
i dont mean to hide from everyone but i
honestly have so much stuff i want to finish before summer rolls
around. yesterday was my last class for corsetry...and once i get my
camera fixed(yes, again! i always break it when im drunk) ill post pics
up. im workin on a project with corsets so stay tuned for that. im also
workin on my website which is coming along rather slowly. i typed up
codes from scratch for websites i made in the past. i even went to private school to take multimedia but this time i want to use
dreamweaver. when do i have time to learn a new program? sometimes i
think i bite off more than i can chew. im kind of a control freak and i
want to do everything myself.... maybe for once i should ask for help.
these are the 2 books im currently reading. If you have a chance pick up a copy. =)
or go search the internet for a summary of what they are about. im too lazy to write about it rite now.
exposed like a turtle without its shell
stripped like the paint peeling off the side of a building
goosebumps emerging on bareskin while sitting in a night gown waiting in the doctors room
when was the last time you felt this
way? ive been feeling this way lately....trying to strip myself of the
many layers i have painted on over the years. the top few
layers were easy to take off but the closer i get to my authentic self
the more harder i have to scrape at it. old beliefs & childhood
conditioning seem to be the hardest because they always seem to leave
an annoying film of residue. i feel vulnerable. painfully
vulnerable...my feelings are tender & uncovered but at the same
time i feel a quiet strength emerging from underneath.